OMG OMG!
I BROKE THE PROMISE I TOLD MYSELF TO NEVER DO IT!
i don't know what i was thinking then.
i didn't consider a thing at all.
i didn't think of the consequences!
i'm sorry i'm sorry!

I'M SORRY!

Please ignore it!
Please please please please please!

The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

suddenly recalled back that we had alot in common.
From food to drinks to animals and to country.
Japan was our main interest. (:

i still hope that one day i would be able to visit japan tgt with you.
but i'm not putting alot hopes into it though.
because will we ever be friends again is still uncertain.

i remember you telling me that channel new asia dunno everyday wad time got introduce about japan country stuff and all.
i did seen that channel once in a while.
but it's just no good watching it alone.
you know, the feeling of watching something u're interested in with someone who has the same interest; It'll be fun! (:

The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

i wonder if u'll ever read this blog.
wonder if u'll even remember this blog.

if u miss me, this is where u'll find me.
Our memories, Our feelings.
or maybe, just mine alone.
am i Zhi zuo duo qing?
idk...

there's alot i want to tell you.
but i don't think its appropriate to let u know anymore.
after all, i made the decision of giving up.
i can't turn back anymore.
there's no way i can turn back again; not again.
i can't forgive myself.
therefore i wish for a happy life for you.
and of cause for myself too.
those tears we shed shall not be wasted. (:


The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

Ng chen wee....

something feels like it's over whelming inside.
feel like it's bursting out.

it's you,
who made me feel so confuse.
no matter how long we're apart,
it's still you.
no matter what song i listen to,
it's still you, your image in my mind.

sigh...

The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

Every time i feel sad.
the first person whom i will think of is you.
Is this a habit?
or reliance?

feel like seeing you again.
being around you never fail to make me happier.
being around you, i feel like i turn all cheerful and stuff.
some kind of aura u have there.

wonder how have u been.
there's little sources i can get to know how u have been.
but it's hard when u're not showing it.

i'm having a headache and shoulderache...
reminds me of the time u help me 'an mo'.
that was so thoughtful and sweet of you.

why would u even still be single when u're such a nice guy?
is ur expectations of gals too high or smth?
hoho, hope u'll find somebody u'll love soon. (:



The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

The thoughts;
of you that i'll keep silent about.

every night, i close my eyes, memories of you flood into my mind.
the thoughts that i kept silent of.
never spoken to anyone.
never express it.

many time i feel like just telling you i miss you,
many times i just end up giving up;
knowing you will never find happiness with me.

thinking to end everything with just one click & delete.
but i never manage to lift that finger to do it.
all i manage to click was block.
just to end ur misery from knowing i still exist in ur life.

u will never realize the part of me that is still missing you,
looking from somewhere u will never notice.

stalking is not the word to describe it,
keeping track of ur smile is what i would say.
making sure i am not in ur life,
making sure u are happy,
taking note of how u're feeling,
taking note of when is the day you will forget me.

it's painful to look at this; i know.
but its something i know i have to.




This blog is my only friend,
the friend that i can say, "i still loves you" , "i still miss you" to.
Though its online, though just by searching it, u'll find it.
But it's the only place the memories are held and kept and remembered.
Maybe even untill the day we grew older, i know, i'll still exist.
The memories that will never be forgotten.

The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

突然好想你。。。

你最近还好吗？
还记得那些我们在一起时光吗？

现在你过得快乐吗？
还会回想起我们的回忆吗？。。。

希望你现在会比过去还来的快乐。。。

希望我们会再次遇见。。。
因为，我从来没有忘记你。。。

我想你。。。　

kbox...
studies...
you with me...
relying...

being with you...
always makes me so comfortable.
being around you, i'm not afraid at all.

i miss you.

i've always wish that u could be my future husband.
i dunno, u feel so right to me...

i couldn't accept u.
i know why now.
but i guess its too late.
it's always too late.
i always choose to run away.

be happy alright? (:

Why every time i decided to wear the bracelet, my mind will be populated with thoughts of you over and over again.
i decided to let go, decided to move on...
but thoughts and memories of you flood my mind.
it's just held me back....
so lost and confused...

now i know how you had felt...
it's should be 10time the torture for u...
if i were you, i would have killed myself...

seriously, you're perfect.
i can find no reason why any girl would not like you.
so after all, the problems lies in me...

i cant stand being alone, waiting in loneliness for the one i love.
and i guess...
no matter how in love one pair are in...
when no matter what they cannot blend into each other social life...
that's it, kinda a death sentence for the couple.

i dont understand myself anymore...
why would i miss you so?...
am i missing out of guilty?
or missing you out of boredom and lonliness?
or missing you out from plain love that i myself didnt realise?

it's impossible to not realise that i still loves you right?...
it's impossible...

though andy keeps thinking that no matter what he said about you,
i always tends to explain for you and stand by you like as if i'm protecting you.
maybe i'm just guilty...

i dunno anymore...
haiis...

i'll end here.

xoxo, Jasmine was here.

第一次你陪我坐着
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏著
还怕我难过

不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了


弦子 - 舍不得

不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的 有你牵著我的那些日子
真的好快乐

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
..我..走..了..



A selfish, un-understanding and flirty galfren i was.
i shall not say anymore dumb things.
i only pray and wish for ur happiness.
hope u will find a gal who are 10 time better than me and are able to give u 10 times the happiness.
aim to make me regret.
aim for ur happiness.


































xoxo, Marshmellow

26th post!!!
hahas.

Just now...
i was missing you.
i was missing you all these day.
and just now, was the moment i shed my tears just by missing you.
and instantly, u msn me.
i was so happy.

but, when u wish me and hx all the best.
i felt heartache.
i wanted to sms u.
i dunno how to.
i dunno how should i express myself.

now, all i can do is pray and hope that u see this.

boii, i'll come back.
all i need is to hear those few words from you.

HELLO.
never tot i would come back and blog didnt you? (:

well...
read through this blog.
tot it was childish of me.
hahas.

if i love you, i shouldnt hab complain so much isnt it?

Well, thanks for treating me to the movie the last time.
haven got the chance to treat you back.
Hope you're doing well.
wonder how's ur school work.
turning 20 soon le wor UNCLE~!!!
going to army soon le huh.
hehe, going botak le.
can imagine how u look like when u're botak already.
xD

wonder when will be the next time we meet up again.
don't forget wad you promise me the last time huh.
if we grow up le then u dun hab GF de hua, let' go jap tgt for a holiday~
hee~ (:

hao bahhs.
hope you'll take care my fren.

OYASUMI.