The thoughts;
of you that i'll keep silent about.

every night, i close my eyes, memories of you flood into my mind.
the thoughts that i kept silent of.
never spoken to anyone.
never express it.

many time i feel like just telling you i miss you,
many times i just end up giving up;
knowing you will never find happiness with me.

thinking to end everything with just one click & delete.
but i never manage to lift that finger to do it.
all i manage to click was block.
just to end ur misery from knowing i still exist in ur life.

u will never realize the part of me that is still missing you,
looking from somewhere u will never notice.

stalking is not the word to describe it,
keeping track of ur smile is what i would say.
making sure i am not in ur life,
making sure u are happy,
taking note of how u're feeling,
taking note of when is the day you will forget me.

it's painful to look at this; i know.
but its something i know i have to.




This blog is my only friend,
the friend that i can say, "i still loves you" , "i still miss you" to.
Though its online, though just by searching it, u'll find it.
But it's the only place the memories are held and kept and remembered.
Maybe even untill the day we grew older, i know, i'll still exist.
The memories that will never be forgotten.

The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine

突然好想你。。。

你最近还好吗？
还记得那些我们在一起时光吗？

现在你过得快乐吗？
还会回想起我们的回忆吗？。。。

希望你现在会比过去还来的快乐。。。

希望我们会再次遇见。。。
因为，我从来没有忘记你。。。

我想你。。。　

kbox...
studies...
you with me...
relying...

being with you...
always makes me so comfortable.
being around you, i'm not afraid at all.

i miss you.

i've always wish that u could be my future husband.
i dunno, u feel so right to me...

i couldn't accept u.
i know why now.
but i guess its too late.
it's always too late.
i always choose to run away.

be happy alright? (:

Why every time i decided to wear the bracelet, my mind will be populated with thoughts of you over and over again.
i decided to let go, decided to move on...
but thoughts and memories of you flood my mind.
it's just held me back....
so lost and confused...

now i know how you had felt...
it's should be 10time the torture for u...
if i were you, i would have killed myself...

seriously, you're perfect.
i can find no reason why any girl would not like you.
so after all, the problems lies in me...

i cant stand being alone, waiting in loneliness for the one i love.
and i guess...
no matter how in love one pair are in...
when no matter what they cannot blend into each other social life...
that's it, kinda a death sentence for the couple.

i dont understand myself anymore...
why would i miss you so?...
am i missing out of guilty?
or missing you out of boredom and lonliness?
or missing you out from plain love that i myself didnt realise?

it's impossible to not realise that i still loves you right?...
it's impossible...

though andy keeps thinking that no matter what he said about you,
i always tends to explain for you and stand by you like as if i'm protecting you.
maybe i'm just guilty...

i dunno anymore...
haiis...

i'll end here.

xoxo, Jasmine was here.