ChocolateMarshmellow Story

The thoughts;
of you that i'll keep silent about.

every night, i close my eyes, memories of you flood into my mind.
the thoughts that i kept silent of.
never spoken to anyone.
never express it.

many time i feel like just telling you i miss you,
many times i just end up giving up;
knowing you will never find happiness with me.

thinking to end everything with just one click & delete.
but i never manage to lift that finger to do it.
all i manage to click was block.
just to end ur misery from knowing i still exist in ur life.

u will never realize the part of me that is still missing you,
looking from somewhere u will never notice.

stalking is not the word to describe it,
keeping track of ur smile is what i would say.
making sure i am not in ur life,
making sure u are happy,
taking note of how u're feeling,
taking note of when is the day you will forget me.

it's painful to look at this; i know.
but its something i know i have to.




This blog is my only friend,
the friend that i can say, "i still loves you" , "i still miss you" to.
Though its online, though just by searching it, u'll find it.
But it's the only place the memories are held and kept and remembered.
Maybe even untill the day we grew older, i know, i'll still exist.
The memories that will never be forgotten.

The part of me that is still GUILTY of missing you; ღJasmine