5th post

Baby, i've been waiting for u the whole morning...
Guess u're dead tired due to last night supper...
Glad that you had fun...
It's alright...
It doesn't matter...
As long as u're happy, i'm fine with it...
i'm not ur galfren any way...
i cant and wont stop you dehhx...

baby, i've been missing you the whole day...
today iie had period...
it's the first day.
its hurting me like hell.
luckily i have the big box of panadol menstrual pain that u bought for me last last month.
if not i'll be long dead.
Thanks dar dar. (=

been strengthless n moody the whole day.
no appetite and no mood to go meet my frens for mahjohn in the evening.
been missing you.
so happy that u msg me several time what i'm doing.
this prove that iie did cross ur mind right?...

aiis...
sometie iie dun feel important to you...
is it a good thing?
or a bad?...
its a good thing as that proves that u wont be hurt so much by me any more.
its bad as it proves that i'm no longer important...

haiis...
well, i'll be trying hard n waiting for da day that everything would be the same...
i gave myself a goal.
To try my best till 1st NOV 2oo8.
If nth changes and improves...
i'll stop.
becoz iie dun wanna become a bother to you.

baby, when iie msg or msn u, u didnt reply, i'll NEVER balme you.
i'll wont tell euu tt euu didnt reply me either...
becoz iie understand u have ur own life, own fren, own stuff to attend to...
so iie wont mind and i'll not bother euu till euu talk to me urself...

baby, iie dun msg euu that offen nor talk to euu online when u're on doesnt mean iie dun miss you or i'm busy...
iie do miss you alot and wants ur attention so much...
but iie dun wanna bother you on wht u're doing...
iie just want euu to enjoy what u're doing..
i'll always be free to talk to euu.
just hit me back when u're free.

baby, i'm worry that if iie give in too much...
u'll not learn how to treasure me...
iie know u're not that type of person...
i'm just worried...
coz, this is how human mind works.
really!....

baby, iie realli wish we could be like last time.
i'll treasure euu and u'll treasure me.we'll do things for each other.
iie can finally go out longer.
iie wanna spent more time with euu...
iie wanna spent more happy moments with euu..
iie wanna create more happy memories with euu...
iie wan you and i to feel much more happiness and bless that what we had in the past.

baby, iie just wanna say...
ILOVEYOU, INEEDYOU & IMISSYOU.
i hope u feel the same way too...

xoxo, Jasmine hearts you.

4th post

I'm currently waiting for you to come back online...
where have you gone to?
what takes you so long?
have euu forgotten about me?...
smth wrong with ur com?
or is it the internet?
or had u fallen aslp?

where r u?...

2.30am

u just msg me that u went o0ut with ur frens...
guess u had realli forgotten about me le..
guess iie rarely come across ur mind le...
you've learn to get over me le.
maybe iie realli should just leave euu as it is...

aiis...
tell me what iie should do...

xoxo, Marshmellow hearts Chocolate

3rd post

baby, iie miss euu badly today...
Today's ur last paper right?
did euu go enjoy urself after that?
how's ur paper?
i believe that u'll do well dehhx.
you've been working hard with sleepless nights.
i know u'll pass dehhx.

enjoy urself now wor.
u deserve it after working so hard for so long for ur studies. (=
enjoy ur holidays wor.
i just hope that u'll stay so cheerful and happy everyday.
i'm so glad u're still the same you.
because i love the way you always were. ^-^

4.07am

realli didn't realise its this late le...
just wen offline...
euu keep asking me go sleep coz later gt gym...
but wo bu she dehhx...
iie miss euu...

everything euu say Bye bye iie always very scared there won't be a hello...
and what if tml euu or iie suddenly busy then dun hab tml how?...
zhen dehhx hen bu she dehhx say bye bye....
haiis...

hao xiang ni ar....

Wed, during my FnN paper, iie gt plenty of time left so drew smth on the back...
was thinking about euu most of the time...
wondering if we realli could meet on friday.
Guess afterall, we can't...
But iie understand why narhhx...
coz ur fren bday mahhs. (=

my fren also bday today.
we slack around the merlion there.
as iie stared at the sea, iie thought of euu.
how nice would it be if we could be here tgt, side by side, ejoying the sea view n sea wind.
we can take lots of pic tgt.
chat tgt.
and hold on to each other. (=
iie just wish euu where there with me...
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i'm so glad i found someone who accepts me as who i am no matter how childish i am. (:

iloveyou. (:

xoxo, Marshmellow hearts Chocolate

2nd post

IHATELOVE.
why can euu control my feelings so easily.
why why why?
idiot.
this hurts.
even though its just a small thing, it still hurts like hell.

GOD DAMIT!
who can save me man...

i miss u...
ytd as i sat bus to bugis with my fren, iie listen to this song on my blog.
iie recall lots of stuff....
iie remember the day we sat bus from orchard back to yishun.
DAMN long.
but...
the at moment somehow seems wondrful...
becoz euu were there wif me...
iie was realli glad iie had euu wif me...
seriously...

iie realli dunno anymore.
are we still possible?
or are u just keeping me hanging on so that i will listen to you to get good grades?
if that's the case, please dont!
iie dun need that.
it'll be meaningless after that aniway.

i'm sorry...
iie know even a thousand sorry wouldnt change anything...
or stop ur heart from hurting...
but still...
i'm sorry...
realli sorry..
dui bu qi...
zhen de dui bu qi...
gomeanasai...
hontoni gomeanasai...

even though euu keep asking me not to think so much n concentrade on my studies...
iie can't....
iie realli can't...
even when doing exam...
dunno why, thoughts of euu will pop out suddenly.

euu lahhs.
tag me say if iie run top 10 euu will meet me.
then i that day test half way suddenly go imagine that if iie meet euu what will happen...


12.48am.

talking to euu on webcam always make miie realli happy...
dunno why.
how long can this typy of happiness last?...
why onli when we're on web cam then euu always like so nice to me?...
normal chatting like weird weird dehhx....
online chat without webcam always kinda stress...
euu lways tends to not express ur happy or nt dehhx.
always sounds so shiong...
iie very scared lehhs...
aiis...

but after chating with euu online wif webcam...
iie feel alot more happier.
very happy now.

i wanna noe u're happy around me...
if nt, i'll always feels like gibing up...

please tell me...
do u wanna gib up or nt...

dun keep me hanging on...

[[_Baby, ineedyou in my life_]]

oxox, Jasmine <3 Chocolate
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1st post

iie dunno what's wrong with me either.
why iie created this blog to dedicate it to hiimx?
crazy...

iie wan hiimx back.
but iie feel like iie dun deserve hiimx.
iie know now no matter how much iie say iie miss hiim and how much iie say iie need hiimx.
he wouldn't believe it.
After all the pain...
who would?...

iie kept telling myself iie should just gib up.
He have better life without me.
There's also pretty girls who likes him.
And i'm sure that they wouldn't hurt himx the way i did.

iie know we will never be able to be the same again.,.
Will we?...

Ppl been telling me, he just needs time.
We need time to slowly recover n think about it.
yeap.
i agreed.
i can wait.
but iie dunno how long can i wait.
not becoz iie will fall for other guys or smth.
just that...
missing you realli hurts sometimes.
Sometime iie feel motivated.
sometime iie dun...

Do you know you're the one that can control the smile on my face n in my heart damn easily?
iie dunno why, since a very long time ago.
it has been that why.
leaving you make me feel guilty and sad and painful in a way.
but iie dunno why iie still choose to leave euu.
dumb isn't it?.

iie knew it.
iie should have close the chapter of me n hx long ago.
becoz iie left it unfinished...
everything was disturbed.
i'm sorry.

haiis...
everything iie said won't do any different any more...

Is there any solution where by both of us could be truely happy?...

[[_iWantUsToBeHappy&Blessed_]]

xoxo, Marshmellow <3 Chocolate