8th Post

haiis...
iie feel sad...
in pain...
iie feel that we're impossible le.
i'm trying my very best to gib up le...
but sometime iie cant help but give in to my feelings of missing you.
but, it always hurts...
what's wrong?
smth's wrong.
i can tell by the on n off mood between us.
is it all becoz of the trust part?

iie know iie dun deserve ur love at all...
but iie cant's help it...
my heart's craving for it...
i'm dying for it...
i wanted ur love badly...
but, i know u're in pain so u cant give it to me.
iie know u no longer know what's real n what's not from me.
i understand that feeling.
iie realli do.
iie realli do undestand the feeling of trusting someone but end up findin that u had trust the wrong person all along..
u wanna be able to trust them.
but u'll feel that u're no long able to trust them like hw u used to.
u dunno what's real or nt.
u'r afraid of being hurt once again.
u wanna be loved by them n to love that person so badly too.
but, there'll always be this unsure feeling.
somehow, it feels the same but different in a way...
u're no longer sure if that person is the one u loved any more.
everything just feel so weird, so unsure, so unsecure, so unreal, so confusing, pain n happy at times but it all seems so... weird in the heart.

iie understand...
haiis...

baby, as iie type these, my tears are rolling down my face.
i'm nt asking for pitiness in this way.
iie just wanna tell euu, iie understand, iie can feel that kind of pain too.
iie can't promise u that iie wont hurt u any more or we'll last forever.
but, baby,
i can promise you that,
i'll love you...
&
i'll treasure you...
and that's a promise for sure.

xoxo, Marshmellow misses Chocolate alot alot...