17th post

*yawn*
sleepy~
dar dar, imissyou.
iie realli do...
everytime wanna msg euu also feel so tempted to call euu dar dar...
so tempted to say even sweeter things to euu...
but iie very scared that iie will scared u off or smth.
but i'm still trying my best to let euu trust me...
iie realli dunno how...
iie realli dunno...
and iie dun hab confident to win ur trust back at all.
but iie wanna atleast try as hard as iie can and hope so much that one day, u'll see it.
(:

dardar ar~
dar dar~
iie very sleepy ar~
but iie can't help wanting to talk to euu so badly...
miss you.
realli...
haiis...
iie very scared iie do things that'll make euu nt like me...
will iie make euu feel that i'm boring n plain?...
i'll try my best to not make euu feel tt way...
but, iie just feel so nervous around euu...
will we nt work out any more?...
everything feel so different..
i'm worried...

today as iie see the video of my cousin's marriged, iie remember the day when i went to meet euu on ur sister's wedding...
iie forgot why iie decided to meet euu.
but that day...
iie was realli happy.
u always made me feel so happy n bless.
u made me feel different.
i always feel so like myself when i'm with euu.
what about euu?...
do iie make euu feel stress all the time?
do iie make euu feel sad most of the time?...
iie guess do...
haiis...

is it realli time for us to let go?
will we ever be the same again?
i'm worried...
very worried...
haiis...

today iie was wandering, if we would ever be as happy n blissful as my cousin?
our love is weak now...
damn weak...
iie feel like crying, iie feel like giving up n move on...
because this is gonna be a bloody hard n bumpy road...
but iie dun bare to lose euu...

please help me too...
help me tell me if its realli time to let go...
please, save me...

iie wanna write alot alot gib euu see.
but iie feel very very tired...
damn sleepy, after writing this, i'm going to sleep le.
tml meet euu n CP n XueLin jie jie to go study.
its gonna be a stressful day again tml.
iie gotta fight to concentrade n learn n memories n even fight againest my own emotions towards euu...
super tiring...
i've learn well, how to lie to myself but, compressing my feelings down n all...
is realli hard especially when i'm with euu...
iie always tends to feel like exploading it all out...
i'm sorry if iie keep excusing myself off somewhere tml like how iie did on thursday.
becoz i'll be exploading myself off somewhere else...
even though that does nt help much...
but iie dun wanna expload myself infront of euu.
i'll hang on...

JIA YOU SHUWEI,
because iloveyou.

xoxo, Marshmallow misses Chocolate WangZi.